Her name's Rose. Rosalie, actually, Rosalie--it's a name for tragic princesses, people who can't help their fate. She can, though. That's why it's confusing, because she is choosing it herself. If you look you can see that she'd be his perfect match. He could help open up her mind and she'd teach him to be a little more jaded. He trusts everyone he meets and that's just not good for him. Someday somebody's gonna take advantage. But--she needs the balance. Isn't it obvious? She won't even look at him. She loves him, but she won't even look at him.
If someone could tell her, she'd know she was being young and stupid. She doesn't know, she can't know, how fast love can leave. Not even deliberately. Sometimes it's an accident, a swift turn along a wet road in a mountain with a tree in the way. A lab explosion when you're young. Sometimes it's on purpose, and that's better. Then they'll be happy and you can be happy even with that--with the knowing that somewhere there's someone made for them, even if they were the someone made for you. It's worse when you drift apart, slowly--when you slowly lose your grip on someone you love. You don't even remember doing it, but the messages you leave on their phone become shorter and shorter, and you know that love is dying and you can't pull it back.
There's a beauty in that. Sometimes things fade slowly. Sometimes things don't have the half-life of uranium, going on and on and on for hundreds or even thousands of years. Sometimes people are like cherry blossoms, there for three glorious weeks--or eight glorious years--and then they're gone and all you have are photographs--or children--or not even that, but just a cell phone resting on a bedside table near a dusty blue coverlet in a room where motes of light dance from the holes between the slats in the blinds.
We see Rosalie refuse to look at him. She loves him and she won't look at him. Her eyes are icepicks directed at that computer screen, organizing charts. She's filling out spaces so the chief won't come around and complain, filling her mind with data and words, words, words, but never emotion, never the feelings. And he looks at her with eyes so full of love it hurts, and I leave messages that will never be heard on answering machines that will never be updated for a child who never loved, and therefore never got to live.
She loves him, but she won't even acknowledge it, won't let their hands brush for even a moment. She ignores him when he speaks to her, insults him when she deigns to see that he's there, she pretends to forget his name, his age, his existence... and I text a child whose name most people never knew, who these coworkers don't know existed, but was so beautiful it's no shame to love her.
Challenge: Write a 600 word, first person story in which you use a first-person pronoun (I, me, my) only two times.
What do you think? Success? Failure? Let me know in the comments.
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